For a while now, I’ve been preparing myself for marriage. Sometimes it is all I think about and I get so excited at the thought! I think of sweet things to do for my future husband and how to decorate the house and what my wedding dress will look like and what songs will be played at the wedding… it’s a mess. But recently, I’ve realized that my priorities are so messed up. Beyond messed up. I am no one’s wife. And I won’t be until God says that the time is right. I need to focus on who I am and my walk with God. I need to focus on being the best daughter I can be before becoming the best wife I will one day be. I need to concentrate on God’s will for my life right now rather than being focused on what may or may not happen months and years in the future.
But it’s so easy for anyone to get distracted. I mean, marriage is the most exciting thing in the world to me. Nothing at all could be more of a blessing (other than to have a child or children, but that usually comes with marriage). So focusing on finding that person or “stumbling upon” him or her could effortlessly be an everyday thing: “Church tomorrow! Gotta look good… I may meet my husband at the altar.” “I need to do my hair before I go around the corner to the store… ‘You meet a man in an aisle and he’ll later walk you down one!'” “Girl, I need to get my feet done… Can’t meet my husband with last week’s nail polish!” I made those up… but I would not be surprised if they have been said before. 😛 But anyway, how can someone focus on the what seems to be boring ol’ right now when the oh so amazing future looks so much more exciting? I don’t know… it’s easier than it seems.