The Greatest

I promise, I have the greatest dad in the world.

This video was made years ago… Lord knows exactly when but I really never appreciated this until a few days ago. I love my family and praise the LORD, we have all been so blessed.

Reasons Why I’m Happay

– God is so amazing. To fall in love with God is to fall in love with the One Who is everything.
– I have great friends! I feel the love from back home and the love I feel here is insane! Gloria Dios!
– I just read more of my favorite book of the Bible: ÉXODO! Y sí, la leí en español. 🙂
– “Y habitaré entre los hijos de Israel, y seré su Dios. Y conocerán que Yo soy Jehová su Dios, Que los saqué de la tierra de Egipto, para habitar en medio de ellos. Yo Jehová su Dios. (Éxodo 29:45, 46 RVR60)” That right there! God is just AMAZING!
– The day is finally over and I’m in the bed. PRAISE GOD. Tuesdays are the worst.
– Chelsea gave me hugs today! Many hugs!
– I have the greatest dad ever and I love him so!
– I love my mom!
– I attend the greatest undergraduate school in the world!
– God is good!

I’m just so happy. 🙂

“Después De Todo”

Cuando todo ya pasó

Y todo terminó

Solo a Ti quiero yo, Señor

Cuando el mundo no pudo

Llenar mi corazón

En Ti encontré la paz, Señor

Mi mayor anhelo

Mi mayor deseo

Es estar

Cerca de Ti

Cada día late

Mi corazón por

Un toque de Ti

De Tu mano, Señor

Cuando todo ya pasó

Y todo terminó

Solo a Ti quiero yo, Señor

Cuando todo ya paso,

Solo a Ti quiero yo, Señor

All For Your Son’s Holy Name

There are a million things on my mind tonight. So here they are:

  • I saw Frozen yesterday afternoon with some friends from the Drama Outreach Ministry (called REACH) at school. Ever since it came out, more and more of them would not. stop. talking. about it. So we took a group trip! It was phenomenal. Honestly, it really is a good one and the message the movie sends out about true love is a perfect definition of it that we scarcely see. It’s heartwarming, it’s sad, it’s funny, it will make you go, “Aww,” Idina Menzel sings in it… Definitely a must-see.
  • My friend’s father passed away over winter break. She missed the first two weeks of school and finally came back yesterday evening. My friend and I decorated the room and her bed with balloons, cut-outs, pictures, notes, and food… The only things missing were confetti and a Mariachi band! (For some reason, we both passionately wished we could have a Mariachi band there.) She came back and she loved everything, she smiled, she laughed, and we all caught up. Then my friend and I went to the cafeteria to get dinner and for some reason, all of a sudden, we both felt so sad. It was such a heaviness that was literally only a glimpse of what our friend is feeling. “Weep with those who weep.” (Romans 12:15)
  • The friend that I mentioned above–the one who I decorated with–is such a blessing. I honestly thank God for her. We always have such a great time together, we can talk about anything, we laugh constantly, we pray together, we eat together, we study together, we go to church together, we discuss the Bible together… Again, she is a blessing that I didn’t even know I wanted or needed. She is so nice and so sweet and SO CUTE. She’s just adorable. All you want to do is pinch her cheeks. I know we will be friends forever. I do mean it. But in all, I just wanted to express gratitude to God for such an amazing blessing.
  • I was watching Legally Blonde: The Musical with a friend the other night and I started falling asleep. So I checked my phone to keep me up a little bit. I went on my Facebook and started scrolling down to, for some reason, see if there was anything old and embarrassing on there. Lo and behold, I find a video that my ex-boyfriend tagged me in. Like a dummy, I go on his page and one glance was all it took. I really wish there was a way that I could express, in words or actions, how much I really do love him. As I’ve said before, not romantically. I just love him unlike I’ve ever loved anyone else. I’ll stop myself there.
  • Last night during Catacombs, Gordon’s candlelit acoustic praise and worship, we sang my favorite hymn of all time, “Come Thou Fount.” It’s funny because I originally couldn’t stand whenever it played on my Pandora. 😛 But anyway, the last four lines of the song are my absolute favorite and always “stick out” to me. Today, they did it for sure:

Prone to wander, LORD, I feel it

Prone to leave the God I love

Here’s my heart, LORD, take and seal it

Seal it for Thy courts above

I started crying. Nothing but flashbacks of my willing sin came to mind and replayed in my head. Thinking of God’s love for me, even when I showed no love for Him, is just incredible. Obviously we know that “For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son and whosoever believes in Him shall not perish but have everlasting life,” but when we truly stop and think about it and realize it and feel it… it’s amazing. It is absolutely amazing.

We later sang, “How Deep The Father’s Love For Us.” As soon as that title came up on the screen, the tears came back and I just knew that singing this song would be different this time:

How deep the Father’s love for us

How vast beyond all measure

That He should give His only Son

To make a wretch His treasure

How great the pain of searing loss

The Father turns His face away

As wounds which mar the Chosen One

Bring many sons to glory

Behold a man upon a cross

My sin upon his shoulders

Ashamed I hear my mocking voice

Call out among the scoffers

It was my sin that held him there

Until it was accomplished

His dying breath has brought me life

I know that it is finished

Can we just dwell on those lyrics? This, in my opinion, has to be one of the most beautiful songs ever written. It helps bring to our minds the reality of God’s true, eternal, unbending love for us and Christ’s undeserving, loving, willing suffering for us. We have a cross in the middle of the chapel, right in front so everyone can see. Singing this song while gazing upon the cross will take your breath away.

Another song we sang (this is my last song reference, I promise) was “Nothing I Hold Onto”:

I will climb this mountain

With my hands wide open

There’s nothing I hold onto

There’s nothing I hold onto

I give it all to You, God

Trusting that You’ll make

Something beautiful

Out of me

  • You know, everything I am is everything that God wants me to be right now (I hope). So many things that I have done within the past two years, I have done because I believe with all my heart that God told me to or told me not to. I don’t know why but realizing that everything you are is because of God just makes you take a step or two back. If you’re living according to God’s Word and His will for your life, who you are is who He has created and called you to be and that is astounding. It’s painful knowing that day-in and day-out I have to deny myself, but it’s relieving in knowing that God has saved you from yourself.
  • I also found out that my mother is getting married.

Be Who You Is

You gotta be who you is and not who you ain’t

’cause if you ain’t who you is then you is who you ain’t.

Admittedly, I will say that it is very nice, sometimes, to hear someone of the opposite gender say something nice about you. Also admittedly, I will say that if no one says anything nice about you or to you then you may begin to feel as if you are less than who you are (or “who you is”). It is so common and so easy for people to believe things about themselves that are not true. Perhaps we just get so used to hearing nothing good about ourselves that we assume everything about us is bad.

Admittedly, and of course, I am guilty of doing so. It’s so easy. After weeks and months of hearing nothing positive from “someone special” about yourself, sometimes all you can believe is that there is something wrong with you. And of course it makes no difference if someone of the same gender or a relative of the opposite gender says something nice about you. Odds are, that person knows you! It’s really something when someone merely looks at you and decides that you are worth getting to know, even though he/she doesn’t have to. It’s really something else when that person discovers internal characteristics and sees external features that make them smile. You have to admit, hearing that you’re beautiful from your girlfriends or being told, “If I was a girl, I’d date you” by your guy friends or even hearing that you are flat-out special from your aunt or uncle really doesn’t have the same effect on a girl/guy. There’s something special about hearing that “someone special” or that potential “someone” saying nice things about you and to you that, unfortunately, we sometimes allow to define ourselves.

For a while, I thought of myself as pretty much nothing. I thought of myself as nothing but a woman, lowly in society, and completely inferior to man. I felt like nothing. I felt like my only purpose was to serve a man and obey his every command, no matter what, and since I wasn’t doing that then, admittedly, I didn’t think I was doing my “job” in life right. Eventually I gave in and acted upon these feelings, but of course to no avail. It just left me feeling even emptier than I had felt before. But sometimes we sell ourselves incredibly short just to receive the slightest bit of acceptance and satisfaction. Naturally, and deny it if you will, we just want to feel special.

Because of this, we are more prone to believing things about ourselves that are (1) not true and (2) made up. I convinced myself that I was nothing. That’s not true. I believed that I wasn’t “doing my job right” because I wasn’t pleasing a man. Who told me that? Be careful not to let your mind wander too much when you’re feeling like no one even wants to get to know you. Be careful not to chastise yourself for not receiving any type of romantic attention, or anything among that line. If you think that you are nothing, eventually you will believe that you are nothing. If you believe that you are nothing, you will act like you are nothing, and that’s not who you are.

You gotta be who you is and not who you ain’t

’cause if you ain’t who you is then you is who you ain’t.

And that ain’t right.

¡Gloria demos al nombre de Dios!

I am so very grateful to be in a land where I am free to read the Word! I could read Exodus everyday and the fact that I have been blessed enough to read and understand it in Spanish is absolutely amazing! Don’t ever take your Word for granted! Not everyone is as fortunate as we are!
And something that stuck out to me while reading the other day was, “Entonces pusieron sobre ellos comisarios de tributos que los molestasen con sus cargas… Pero cuanto más los oprimían, tanto más se multiplicaban y crecían, de manera que los egipcios temían a los hijos de Israel.” Éxodo 1:11-12, RVR 1960. The KJV reads, “Therefore they did set over them taskmasters to afflict them with their burdens… But the more they afflicted them, the more they multiplied and grew. And they were grieved because of the children of Israel.”
Wow!!! The harsher the cause, the greater the effect. No matter what affliction we are put through, we are children of God and we will never stop growing. It IS an act of God, after all. The children of Israel didn’t suffer for nothing! God always knows what He’s doing (of course)! Be it a pain to the world. That is alright because it will be ALL GLORY to God. Go read your Bible! It is wonderful!

Insomnia Can Produce Good Thoughts

Don’t ever let sex be the center of your relationship. Once the sex is gone, will your relationship still be there? If the sex were to stop, would you know what to say to the other person? If you decided to end sexual intimacy, would you still be (emotionally) intimate? Sex is a pivotal cause of (any kind of) relationship destruction.
Keep your relationship safe and keep your body and heart safer.
Jesus at the center is better anyway, for everything. 🙂