Losing you is like being stabbed in the heart and losing all your limbs at once.
It’s like being asked for a final plea but having nothing to say because you know you’re in the wrong but my gosh, you would defend yourself if you could.
Why does it have to hurt so bad…it hurts my heart and I can feel it. I can physically feel the heartache.
I know what you left. I understand why you couldn’t stay…
But my gosh, why did you have to go?
The two situations can’t compare. You were so much better. You are so much better.
Nothing is worth that.
Just come back. Please. Come back.
…crying and trying to find comfort in something.
The only thing I can think of is “The LORD giveth and the LORD taketh away.”
But it still hurts.
Just when you thought you were doing well…
How do you say sorry when you’ve hurt beyond belief the one person you NEVER thought you would?
How do you say sorry and try to repair what is totally damaged?
How do you say sorry for not loving the one person you love…?
How do you say sorry when you feel like complete sh*t and they’re still angry about it?
How do you say sorry when you feel like a fool for turning your head and looking the other way?
How do you say sorry when your sole presence brings chaos and pain…?
How do you say sorry to the person?
How do you forgive yourself?
How do you move on?
I hear it. I feel it. I believe it.
Then I feel like I’m just a number two.
The one thing I never did was make you feel like number two.
The rage turned into anger.
The anger turned into sadness.
Everything hurts even still… but it’s progress.