Tortured.

One of the worst things in the world is to be tortured. It could possibly be the worst thing.

It’s not fair. I’ve moved on and I’m happy and it’s not fair. Why is that I am still haunted by thoughts of things that happened months and years ago? How is it that my mind still finds ways to distract me with things that only could or would have happened? It’s not fair. I’ve moved on. I’ve finally moved on and it’s not fair.

I just want to be free from this. I don’t want bad thoughts anymore. Who does? Why have they made a home in my mind? Please, please, just go away.

Things to Remember

1. Remember, child, remember,
That God is in the sky,
That He looks on all we do
With an ever wakeful eye.

2. Remember, oh! remember,
That all the day and night,
He sees our thoughts and actions,
With an ever watchful sight.

3. Remember, child, remember,
That God is good and true;
That He wishes us to be
Like Him in all we do.

4. Remember that He hates
A falsehood or a lie-
Remember, He will punish
The wicked by-and-bye.

5. Remember, oh! remember,
That He is like a friend.
And He wishes us to be
Good, and happy in the end.

6. Remember, child, remember
To pray to Him in Heaven;
And if you have done wrong,
Oh! ask to be forgiven.

7. Be sorry, in your little prayer,
And whisper in His ear;
Ask His forgiveness and His love,
And He will surely hear.

8. Yes, He will hear thee, and forgive
Like a father, good and kind;
So remember, child, remember,
That you love with all your mind-

9. The God, who lives in Heaven,
And gives us each delight,
Who guards us all the day,
And saves us in the night.

To all the women,

To all the women: Just because a man likes it, doesn’t mean he respects it. There’s nothing respectable about 1000 likes from a flock of men staring at your butt, breasts, thighs, duck faces and tongue lashes; imagining what they’d do to you in bed. You’re no longer a woman in their eyes, you’re an object, a piece of meat, a vain imagination in the eyes of a luster. You want be sexy and feel beautiful, I get it. But being loved and respected should mean more. Beauty is in modesty and a man won’t love a woman he can’t respect.

A lady never has to tell anyone she’s a lady. Everyone already knows.

Naked

Do you know what it’s like to be completely naked in front of someone? To be completely naked is to be fully clothed but still that person is able to see every last part of you. This is good if it’s your spouse, your best friend, or maybe a sibling… but when it’s someone who no longer holds a “title” in your life, it can be a little scary.

There is someone out there who knows every inch of you, inside and out. There is someone who knows what you like and don’t like, what turns you on and turns you off, what pleases you and what doesn’t. It’s dangerous. It’s dangerous because you could spend years away from that person but the second they they say a word to you, the second they touch you, the second they have you alone, it’s all over. You may be able to lie and deny it, but they are inside you- inside your head. They know everything. They know when you’re lying and when you’re not. They know how to get what they want from you. They know how to have their way with you. And there’s nothing you can do about it.

The Book of Jeremiah

I’m going through Jeremiah for the second time and am viewing it very differently. The first time I read it, I was saddened thinking about how God’s own chosen people could so drastically turn away and anger God so much. This time as I read it, I see God’s unfailing and everlasting love. He gives His people chances and opportunities to repent in order for GOD to CHANGE His mind and not destroy them, even though He has seen all that they do. God never wants to hurt us, but He will never share His glory with another. Holiness. There is no sin nor impurity that can stand in the presence of the Most High God. He longs for us to rid ourselves of it, because if we don’t, He will. But He loves us and is patient, giving us time to reconcile with Him. Praise God.

Sing Praise

I find it amazing how David continually wrote psalms and sang praises to the LORD, regardless of his situations. Fleeing for his life, shaking in fear, hiding in a cave as a completely innocent man… yet he still chose to praise and honor the LORD. He still chose to acknowledge His goodness and be thankful for His protection. We really have to take a step back and look at our bad situations differently because we might miss all that God is doing. Even when it seems like He isn’t doing a thing, He is still worthy of our praise.