Just come back. Please. Come back.
…crying and trying to find comfort in something.
The only thing I can think of is “The LORD giveth and the LORD taketh away.”
But it still hurts.
Just when you thought you were doing well…
How do you say sorry when you’ve hurt beyond belief the one person you NEVER thought you would?
How do you say sorry and try to repair what is totally damaged?
How do you say sorry for not loving the one person you love…?
How do you say sorry when you feel like complete sh*t and they’re still angry about it?
How do you say sorry when you feel like a fool for turning your head and looking the other way?
How do you say sorry when your sole presence brings chaos and pain…?
How do you say sorry to the person?
How do you forgive yourself?
How do you move on?
I hear it. I feel it. I believe it.
Then I feel like I’m just a number two.
The one thing I never did was make you feel like number two.
The rage turned into anger.
The anger turned into sadness.
Everything hurts even still… but it’s progress.
I’m trying to be happy again.
I’m trying to be understanding.
I’m trying to be alright…
I’m trying to not get angry.
I’m trying to let my sadness take its course.
I’m trying to not assume.,.
I’m trying to trust.
I’m trying to not be paranoid.
I’m trying to breathe…