I was just thinking… about my new and current “problem.” How I can’t get it right and how I’ve tried and I’ve tried but still, I come to fail… which stinks. Big time.
But then I thought to myself, ‘Wait a second.’ Then I imagined Jesus telling me and trying to get through my hard head, “This is what I came for!
I knew you couldn’t get it right no matter how hard you tried. THAT is why I came. Not so you could be perfect all the time! I came to earth, hung on a cross, and DIED for YOU so YOU could be FORGIVEN of EVERY SINGLE FAULT and slip-up that you’ve EVER made, that you’re making, and that you ever will make. This is what I came for!“
Dear God… Oh, thank you, Jesus.
How can I ever repay you, Jesus? (If that were a serious question, I’d like to think that God might chuckle.) I can’t repay you. That is why I offer my sacrifice of praise. That is why I strive for physical and mental purity. That is why I rejoice in my sorrow, my suffering, and my mistakes because I know that he came to earth to wash away every single stupid thing I’ve done… and that YOU’VE done! That the entire world has done! Immanuel! How awesome is that?! Go Jesus!!
Last week was Senior Week at QU and it was madness. They held a concert for the graduating seniors who were 21 and over, so of course, they had lots of alcohol freely flowing about. So I get on Facebook and see this girl from the Christian Fellowship group post a video from the concert dancing and just having a good time. There was nothing in the video showing her drinking or anything but I thought to myself, ‘How can a Christian go to a party like that?‘ I mean, she is a CHRISTIAN, after all.
But then I remembered, “Don’t judge others just because they sin differently than you.” Now, I can neither say that she was or was not “sinning” at the event but personally, I definitely would not want to be caught dancing and partying to worldly music on a college campus during senior week surrounded by tipsy young adults drinking beer and other types of alcohol.
God keeps me humble. Pretty much as soon as I thought that, I remembered my own sin and how I fall short of God’s glory daily. There are things that I do that I know I shouldn’t. There are things that I don’t even realize I’m doing that are indeed sins. So who am I to judge anyone else? Who am I to even think that I can? There is one Judge, and one Judge only. God keeps me humble.
You are good
You are good
You are good
And Your mercy is forever…
I am such a sinner. I don’t know why You love me. I don’t know why You sent Your Son to die for people who are stuck in sin- people like me. I don’t know why You love me SO MUCH. You are in love with me. Me, who didn’t do anything to deserve Your love. Me, who has done nothing but constantly fail You. Me, who knows what is right then does the opposite, regretting it later but then going back to it again. Me. A sinner. I don’t know why You keep forgiving me. I don’t know why You keep giving me chances. I don’t understand Your love but I am thankful for Your love. So thankful. Without Your love, I would not be able to write this letter. Without Your love, I would not be where I am in my life right now. Without Your love, I would be headed to destruction definitely. I can’t understand it. I can’t understand You. I can’t even begin to understand the fullness of Your love. You love me and are in love with me. I don’t know why. I love You and I am in love with You. There are reasons upon reasons for that. You are so worthy and faithful and kind and compassionate and You understand every little thing we do. You see our hearts… LORD, I love You. I don’t know why You love me but I am grateful for Your love.