God’s Amazing

Isn’t it amazing how we tell God what we want, how He turns it into what we need, and how that then becomes everything we could’ve ever wanted?

God, You are amazing. You are CRAZY amazing. ❤

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To Be Loved

Very often I find myself wanting to pray for God to send me “the one.” Every time, shortly after, I realize that no matter how much or how hard I pray, it’s all going to happen in God’s timing anyway. I could pray day after day, but if God doesn’t want “him” to come until next year, “he” won’t come until next year, and that’s the end of it.

But more than anything, all I want is for things to have played out differently. I wish my words and my actions and my thoughts were different. I wish I could rewind time and do certain things all over again. But don’t we all…?

We have to remember that we’re never the only lonely person in the world, even though it sometimes seems that way.

I try to remind myself that true love is only and can only be found in God. God is love. If we look to any person for it, we will inevitably become disappointed and perhaps even needy. We don’t want that.

If you want to find love, read the Gospel of John- John is all about love. Or read 1 Corinthians 13, the love chapter. You know, there is love everywhere and all around us and we fail to realize it all the time. Emmanuel is His name! “God with us.” If God is love then love is always with us no matter where we are, no matter where we go; high and low.

But we’re human. Sometimes we need to physically feel someone touching us and kissing us and holding us and loving us. We desire to hear the audible words, “I care about you,” “I’m never going to hurt/leave you,” “I want you,” and of course, “I love you.” I get it. It’s natural. We’re human. It’s okay to desire an earthly love. But we have to, have to, have to remind ourselves that God is love and God is with us: Emmanuel.

Insomnia Can Produce Good Thoughts

Don’t ever let sex be the center of your relationship. Once the sex is gone, will your relationship still be there? If the sex were to stop, would you know what to say to the other person? If you decided to end sexual intimacy, would you still be (emotionally) intimate? Sex is a pivotal cause of (any kind of) relationship destruction.
Keep your relationship safe and keep your body and heart safer.
Jesus at the center is better anyway, for everything. 🙂

Forgiveness? Loneliness… God.

How do you forgive someone who has never apologized?

How do you forget someone who never said, “Goodbye?”

One of the deepest longings of the human being is to feel wanted and loved and cared for. That’s the dream, right? There’s nothing better.

Seeing others in actual relationships who have found “the one” just makes us want that love even more.

This is not a bad thing! It’s natural. We’re humans. We all have the desire. Some have a greater one than others, but it’s there.

Maybe that’s why it hurts so much.

You could have something- something wonderful and you realize that the relationship was poisoning the both of you. No matter how badly you just want to give love and be loved, it’s not for you.

Then you could happen to find something- something so wonderful, what you thought was “wonderful” looks like a first grade “boyfriend/girlfriend.” But then one day it just disappears. Without warning, without an apology, without a “Goodbye…” without anything.

So it feels terrible.

There is something there that you could have, but that’s something detrimental.

Then there was something that you had, but that’s just a thing of the past.

Yes, it hurts. Like crazy.

So you wait and wait. You try to focus on God and try to find your full satisfaction in Him, but it’s hard because you’re human and not a day goes by that doesn’t cause you to think of life with “the one.”

So you prepare yourself each day just in case you meet this “one.”

But you don’t. And you have to constantly remind yourself: God is all you’ll ever need. You can’t find true joy and full satisfaction until you realize that.

Because It Happened

Smiling

Because it happened

Dancing

Because it happened

Laughing

Because it happened

Understanding

Because it happened

Thanking

Because it happened.

I never understood why someone would say, “Don’t cry because it’s over. Smile because it happened.” Obviously my response was, “Why would I smile?? IT’S OVER.” But I’ve recently come to the better realization that God allows us to go through everything He puts us through for a reason. Whether it is something happy or sad, I’ve learned to rejoice. When I think about high school (goodness gracious), I can SMILE because everything that has happened taught me how to value myself, what to look for in a person, and helped me better understand what to expect in a male. When I think about the hard times my family has gone through, I can SMILE because everything that has happened has made me value my family even more and understand the importance of not only having a family, but BEING a family. When I think about my past relationship, I can SMILE because everything that has happened has taught me an unbelievable amount of things about myself, my relationships, and about really listening to God. When I think about “David,” we’ll call him, I can SMILE because everything that has happened taught me to STOP, look at the situation, look at my motives, look inside myself, know my self-worth, think and consider everything about the other person, and to really, above all else, focus on God. I did not understand anything at first and I still do not understand everything now, but I’ve learned something so important about myself, people, and other vital things.

I can smile through everything. YOU can smile through everything! And why not do it? What’s frowning ever gotten anyone? Wrinkles, darling. Wrinkles.

So smile. 🙂