Christian and Gay

I never understood homosexuality. For me, I was Paul, persecuting those who identified as “gay” or “lesbian.” I was never one to protest, tell people they’re going to hell, that God hates them, etc. I just didn’t understand how the two could mix: Christianity and homosexuality.

If you’re gay, okay. Live your life however you want. I’m not going to be angry with or oppose you.

But in terms of Christianity? It’s an abomination. It says so in our Bible. So why is it even a topic of conversation at churches and Christian schools, like mine?

I never believed that people “couldn’t help it” or were “born this way.” Not until…

…not until about two weeks ago. I made a new friend. She is gay. She is Christian. She loves God but finds herself attracted to girls. She told me that if she could “turn it off,” she would because it would make her life so much easier… but she can’t.

She’s prayed about it, she’s been prayed over, she’s spoken to her pastor, she’s met with a Christian counselor, and… nothing.

Life didn’t make sense for the longest when she told me her story. I was so confused. I still am.

What’s even more confusing? She likes me… And you know what’s crazy?

I like her too.

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Things to Remember

1. Remember, child, remember,
That God is in the sky,
That He looks on all we do
With an ever wakeful eye.

2. Remember, oh! remember,
That all the day and night,
He sees our thoughts and actions,
With an ever watchful sight.

3. Remember, child, remember,
That God is good and true;
That He wishes us to be
Like Him in all we do.

4. Remember that He hates
A falsehood or a lie-
Remember, He will punish
The wicked by-and-bye.

5. Remember, oh! remember,
That He is like a friend.
And He wishes us to be
Good, and happy in the end.

6. Remember, child, remember
To pray to Him in Heaven;
And if you have done wrong,
Oh! ask to be forgiven.

7. Be sorry, in your little prayer,
And whisper in His ear;
Ask His forgiveness and His love,
And He will surely hear.

8. Yes, He will hear thee, and forgive
Like a father, good and kind;
So remember, child, remember,
That you love with all your mind-

9. The God, who lives in Heaven,
And gives us each delight,
Who guards us all the day,
And saves us in the night.

Life at Gordon

So I haven’t posted about it but I AM at my new school and it is GREAT! I love it here so much… The people are so nice, it has SUCH a great community, there are so many different things to do and get involved in, the classes are interesting (and if they aren’t, so far none of my professors make things boring), my RD’s wife makes us cookies (REALLY good cookies, might I add), my roommates are great (one is really quiet but she is very nice and the other is just wonderful!), I received THREE job offers within the last week (I accepted two)… the whole nine! And to top it all off, this is a school that believes in the Almighty God. The Maker of Heaven and Earth. The Creator of all things! Wow! Amazing! I love it here SOOO MUCH and it feels so great to say that about my own school! 😀

You should come! Yes, you!

GOOD NEWS!

Hey everyone! So it’s finally time to tell you all about the good news I had from before…

I go to Quinnipiac University in Hamden, Connecticut. Well, a few weekends ago, I visited Gordon College in Wenham, Massachusetts. It. Is. AMAZING. It is almost $10,000 cheaper than QU, you get an automatic scholarship every year if you have a high enough GPA (I believe it ranges from $7,000 to $12,000), the campus is so much smaller (which I found out that I like), it’s a Christian school (I wasn’t so sure I wanted to go to a Christian school buuuut… I changed my mind), one of my room mates from last year’s mission trip to the Dominican Republic goes there, the chapel is so nice, the cafeteria is gorgeous (and has the ZA flag, the Mexico flag, and the DR flag), everyone is SO NICE, people actually say, “Hi!” when you walk by, it’s close to Beantown, AND… the laundry is FREE! 😀 I had such a good time. They also have this event called Catacombs every Sunday night at 10… all it is is acoustic worship with one little light. I love it. It keeps your mind off of everyone in the room and helps you just focus on that one-on-one praise and worship with God. 🙂

SO yesterday I received an e-mail saying that I got accepted!! HOOOYAAHHH! Gloria Dios!!! I am SO EXCITED! I have never chosen a school of my own before nor have I ever been away from home for more than a week so this move is going to be CRAZY but crazy GOOD. ^_^ Ahhhhhhh! Haha, Gordon bound, ya’ll! 😉

What Am I Doing…

I’m at that point right now where I don’t know anything. Hardly anything… I don’t know where to go to school anymore, really. I know what I want to do and I know that this is what God has called me to do (to be an elementary school Spanish teacher- ¡olé!). But choosing a school to transfer to AND stick with is so… what’s the word? I don’t know. But it requires a lot of time and effort and it is very stressful. This is practically my LIFE. Not even joking.

How am I supposed to make a decision on where to go for the next however many years that will lead me to my independent life afterwards? I’ve been praying about it and at first I was SO set on this school in Massachusetts (I live in Connecticut) but now when I think about it, I can’t leave. And what’s holding me back is my church family. I am not worried about finding a church or a great group on campus or anything (plus it is a Christian school) but it would be ridiculously hard to say goodbye. My angels! My deacons! My friends! And I’m friends with everybody- the youth and some older ladies. I just can’t go but I absolutely need to get out of here.

Hm. :/